One of my favorite parts about our group is that since we all come from very different backgrounds and beliefs, we are able to really challenge our deeply embedded thoughts of how Jesus is. The more I study his life, the more I realize his personality and essence are so entirely different than I grew up thinking he was. My other favorite thing about our study is that we are not afraid to ask the hard questions. If something comes up in the scriptures that we don't understand or doesn't sound right, we don't just all sit there saying, "God is good, all the time. All the time, God is good," while on the inside we are screaming, "THIS MAKES NO SENSE! WHY WOULD JESUS KILL A FIG TREE FOR NO APPARENT REASON?!?!" (Mark 11:12-25)
This is so refreshing, as a follower of Jesus. I feel that many times we are scared to ask the hard questions about the Bible. It's not that we're scared that someone is going to disprove the Bible, or at least I'm not. It's that we're scared that WE might disprove the Bible for ourselves. There are things in the Bible that make no sense. There, I said it. They just don't. There are questions that we have about the Bible that we kind of don't want answered, for fear of what it may do to the god that we have made God out to be. Many times, when one of these comes up, we make up an answer that seems like what the nature of God is like. We take the tough questions and give OUR answer as to how God feels about or would react to a certain situation.
I actually Google searched, "Asking the tough questions about Christianity," and found a website that has the answer to every one of these questions. As I scanned, one of the first ones I came across was "How can God be three persons?" and then next to it is a link that says ANSWER. I actually found this almost comical. This website is telling me that it has the answer to the mystery of the Trinity, something that Biblical scholars throughout the years have tried but unsuccessfully been able to explain.
The good news is, I have found the answer. In my infinite wisdom and Biblical scholarship I have discovered the answer to these tough questions of the Bible. The answer is this: I don't know. There are things about the Bible that I don't, and may never understand. As Donald Miller once wrote, “I can no more understand the totality of God than the pancake I made for breakfast understands the complexity of me.” There are things about God, about His personality, about His Love, about His actions, about his anger, about his essence, that I cannot understand. This is not to say that God cannot give me understanding, because John 16:13 says, "When the Spirit of truth comes, He will guide you into all the truth. For He will not speak on His own, but He will speak whatever He hears. He will also declare to you what is to come." The key there is that the spirit will guide us to truth. We cannot guide ourselves through conjecture on how we think God should be. He must guide us to the truth when we study, and if He doesn't, we must come to terms with the fact that there are things we don't understand.
The fact that I don't understand everything is one of the greatest truths God has ever revealed to me. There are things I don't know how to explain. There are aspects of scripture that seem contrary to what I think God should be like. However, I know what God has done in my life, and the squalor that he pulled me out of, so how can I do anything but love and trust Him? Of course I would love for the Spirit to reveal everything to me. But what is it that saves me? Is it my knowledge and understanding of God, or is it my faith? It may be scary, but without proper knowledge and understanding, God requires an enormous amount of faith. John 14:6 says, "I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me."
Jesus is the truth, and "the truth will set you free." (John 8:32)